January 22, 2010
Posted: 12:12 AM ET
Editor’s Note: Joe and Jill Wilkins of Portland, Oregon, were in the process of finalizing their adoption of a little Haitian boy, Samuel Chancelet, when the earthquake struck. Samuel Chancelet is safe, but they are still desperately trying to bring him home. They will be documenting their journey and updating the LKL blog regularly on their progress. This is the fourth article in the series.
I cannot believe today is the day. Well, actually, I am not going allow myself to feel the emotions until Samuel Chancelet is in my arms. I am still very fearful of all that is involved in processing the children and getting them to the U.S. There are many “unknowns” and I am praying that they are allowed to go to their adoptive parents. We are in for a VERY LONG NIGHT.
Today has been so much fun, as I have been able to share some “private” time with some of the other adoptive parents who have been alongside us this whole time. I have somehow found myself trying to represent all of us and have felt such a heavy burden to “get this right.” Each one of us has a story to tell, and a battle to fight and I wanted all of us to win. We are all facing the same challenges, emotions, and exhaustion. This has been the journey of a lifetime and knowing we are not alone is so comforting. We were all discussing the documentation of this ordeal and how we will have an amazing story to share with our children.
I think I am fearful of what is to come. We don’t know what this means for our adoption. We don’t know what it is going to take to finalize it and that’s really hard. We have been through so much already (before the earthquake) and knowing there is another mountain ahead is not something I can process right now.
I am with my friends (yes, laptop on the table; I cannot live without it or my Blackberry. They are lifelines). I am taking a moment to try and relax; it is the first time in over a week I have been able to stop moving and it is the first “real meal” I have had since that time too.
– A dear friend has helped me calm down, take deep breaths, and focus on the good that is about to happen.
– People are showing AMAZING support. I am truly humbled by what is happening around me. THANK YOU SO MUCH.
– I miss Joe.
– I am amazed at what God has done. Every change, every new thing I get hit with, I am working to just go with the flow, knowing He is in control. I am just trying to allow the plan to play out.
– Joe just text messaged me and said, “Are you ready to be a mom?” My heart just skipped a beat. Is this really happenin?
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