By continuing to speak out about Chris Brown's violent Feb. 8 attack, Rihanna says she is slowly moving past the ugly incident.
"It's relieving," the singer, 21, says in the January issue of GQ. "Because it was built up for so long, and all these thoughts and emotions have been running through my mind for the past eight months. And now it's like I finally get to let go and move on."
Although she says doesn't like "talking about it" a lot, "every time I do, it's better; it's easier each time."
She says she finally decided to speak out about the incident because "I wanted to move on. And I knew that was the only way I could have done it. And I wanted people to move on with me. 'Cause the last big thing they know about me is That Night. And I don't want that to be what people define me as."
Although pal Jay-Z gave her "advice and guidance," she says "nobody" helped her move past the incident.
"I didn't really want to be around anybody, for them to stare at me and stuff, and feel sorry for me. So I just — I stayed in the house a lot. Then I started to get cabin fever. I was like, I'm going crazy in here," says the singer, who just dropped her latest album, Rated R.
Returning to the studio was therapeutic, she says.
Looking back, Rihanna says the biggest lesson she learned is that "love is blind."
"It took a lot of strength to pull out of that relationship," she says. "To finally just officially cut it off. It was like night and day. It was two different worlds. It was the world I lived for two years, and then having the strength to say, 'I'm gonna step into my own world. Start over.'"
She says the physical pain was nothing compared to the emotional pain.
"The bruises fade away," she says. "But the thing that stays with you is the emotional scars."
Asked if she'll ever be friends with Brown again, she says, "Maybe in like ten years, you know? But it's not something that I'm depending on. I'm not depending on his friendship."
Her message to women in abusive relationships?
"Stop blaming yourself for that outcome," she says. "There's nothing you can do, ever, to excuse a man's behavior like that."
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By Michael Y. Park via People
Only after she had a revelation about her duty to her fans did Rihanna realize that she had to speak out about how she was a victim of ex-boyfriend Chris Brown's domestic abuse.
And now? Now she's almost ashamed of herself for having gotten into a relationship with him in the first place.
"I fell in love with this person," she tells Diane Sawyer in an interview that aired on Good Morning America Thursday. "That's embarrassing."
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The singer, 21, also hinted that it may have taken "eight or nine attempts" before she could finally leave the relationship.
"It's pretty easy to go back," she says, affirming Sawyer's statement that the average woman makes seven attempts to leave an abusive partner. "You start lying to yourself. The physical wounds go away. You want this thing to go away. This is a memory you don't want to ever have again."
Now a reconciliation is all but impossible – a judge has ordered Brown, 20, not to contact Rihanna (real name: Robin Fenty) for five years as part of his sentence.
Rihanna says she was further humiliated by the public nature of the incident, which included a leaked photo of her battered face.
"I was like, here goes my little bit of privacy," she says.
But she had an epiphany about how her actions after the assault would affect thousands of impressionable girls.
"When I realized that my selfish decision for love could result in some young girl getting killed, I could not be easy with that part," she says. "I couldn't be responsible for that. Even if Chris never hit me again, who's to say their boyfriend won't? Who's to say they won't kill these girls? I didn't realize how much of an impact I had on these girls' lives until that happened."
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By Jessica Herndon via People
Nine months after she was assaulted by Chris Brown, Rihanna finally opens up about the night that left her bruised and bloody.
"This happened to me. ... It can happen to anyone," the singer, 21, tells Diane Sawyer in an interview airing Thursday on Good Morning America and on 20/20 on Friday.
Rihanna says it was particularly difficult because of the special place Brown held in her heart: "He was definitely my first big love."
Both singers have worked to move on. Brown is serving a community labor sentence in Virginia and working on new music for an album titled Graffiti that will drop Dec. 15. Rihanna is shaking things up with her edgy fashion and releasing her fourth album, Rated R, on Nov. 23. The album's first single "Russian Roulette" debuted last week.
Hip-hop mogul Jay-Z sat down with Oprah Winfrey and disclosed his thoughts about the domestic abuse incident between pop star Rihanna and her former boyfriend Chris Brown.
Jay-Z said he had talked to Rihanna, 21, regarding the incident and explained that this was a situation that she could grow from. "There's a contingent of young people who are going through the same situation and no one is their voice," the rapper said while on "The Oprah Winfrey Show" that aired on Wednesday.
"She can be their hero or she can choose not to grow from this," Jay-Z continued.
Brown, 20, pleaded guilty to felony assault in June relating to a domestic violence incident involving his then-girlfriend Rihanna, and was officially sentenced in August. The judge sentenced Brown to receive five years of probation, six months of community labor in Virginia (his home state), and ordered him to not contact Rihanna and keep 100 yards away from her - 10 yards if they both attend a music biz event - for the next five years.
Jay-Z discovered Rihanna about five years ago and recently collaborated with her and Kanye West on his new hit single "Run This Town."
Editor's Note: Tune in to Larry King Live tonight at 9pmET/6pmPT for the full interview with Chris Brown.
By Amy Huggins
LOS ANGELES (CNN) - He looks so young. And he is. At 20, Chris Brown is not old enough to buy a beer without breaking the law. But he got himself into a world of legal trouble when he assaulted his then-girlfriend Rihanna in February.
“We have to be like 10 yards away from each other,” Brown softly tells CNN’s Larry King in an exclusive interview to air Wednesday night – his first television interview since his arrest.
Brown still loves Rihanna. He tells King he’s still in love with her. Even tougher for him is looking at the photo. You know the one—the image that might haunt, and define Brown forever. “When I look at it now, it's just like, wow, like, I can't - I can't believe that - that actually happened.” He adds he does not remember performing the violent acts that have changed his life.
Yet Brown pleaded guilty to felony assault on June 22. The deal keeps him out of jail. A second felony charge, making criminal threats, was dropped. He was sentenced to five years probation and six months of community labor.
What does it mean? “It means he walks the straight and narrow for five years,” Brown’s attorney Mark Geragos tells King. “I've grown to love this kid like a son or a nephew. I have a high degree of confidence - I'll say it now so that you can play it back if he ever does anything - but a high degree of confidence that he's not going to do anything like this in the future.”
Brown agrees, saying “everything comes with consequences. They want me to pick up trash remove graffiti.” He calls the sentence fair. “I'm a hard worker. It's something I'm willing to do.”
Why did it happen? How did it happen? They are questions Brown and his mother, Joyce Hawkins, have been asking. “Chris has never, ever been a violent person, ever,” Hawkins tells King.
She said her husband was abusive – and Brown knew it. “I used to be scared to go to bed,” the singer recalls. He’s not blaming that for the attack on Rihanna. Still he says, “nobody taught us how to love one another. Nobody taught us a book on how to - how to control our emotions or our anger.” He adds, “I wish I could have changed that night.”
Rihanna calls Brown’s mother “Mom”. The two have spoken and seen each other periodically since the incident. The court order that prevents her son from seeing Rihanna does not extend to Joyce. “(I) let her know that I was very, very baffled, what had happened, and apologized for my son, along with I'm so sorry what happened to you. And I didn't know what - I didn't know what else to say, and I gave her a hug, and she hugged me, as well.” Hawkins then cries.
“I just need to prove to people I can be a role model,” Brown says. “That's not who I am as a person, and that's not who I promise I want to be,” the singer laments. It’s been a couple of months since he saw Rihanna, and admits the separation has been “difficult.”
He’s sad when asked about her dating other men. “I definitely would be affected by it, but, at the end of the day, I mean, we're not together, so, if she's happy, I'm cool.” Would he be with her now if things had been different that night? Brown says only, “We’ll always be friends.”
And as much as Chris Brown wants to move on, he‘s left with this: “I made a mistake, and I - and it was just something I have to live up and own.”
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We'll be monitoring the news on this story throughout the day – let us know your thoughts on a possible plea deal for Chris Brown!
From TMZ.com – Chris Brown's lawyer and the prosecutor in the Rihanna case have been engaged in "serious" plea bargain negotiations and according to one source, a "deal is close."
We know Brown will plead not guilty tomorrow, however the plea may just be a formality.
Sources say Rihanna has made it clear she does not want to testify in the case and wants Brown to cop a plea. We're told one of the reasons she's in Barbados right now is because "she wants to be as far away from this case as possible."
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